2 posts tagged “happy”

I realized something today. I haven't cried in awhile. A long while actually. I'm really happy. There are a lot of things that I wish were different, good things and bad things but I know that I can't change them. There's a lot of stuff going on in my life right not, things that are stressful but I'm happy. I'm laughing and joking around with people at work. I like going to work and helping customers. I had a lady follow Gene yesterday and tell him all about how I went out of my way to help her with something that wasn't even my job and how great I was. Mind you work isn't awesome. The new manager is an asshole but everyone else has been awesome. I feel like everyone is so much nicer to me now but I honestly think that I had just decided that everyone at work hated me before and it was mostly my own fault that I was miserable. I honestly believe that. I was just paranoid and depressed and I felt like everyone hated me. I think in a lot of situations, I was my own worst enemy. But I'm happy. I like going in to work. I love my summer classes. I remember now why I decided to minor in history. I love finding out cool new facts, like the fact that Benito Mussolini was going to be an elementary school teacher before he became the fascist dictator of Italy. Call me a big geek. I love learning sign language. It's pretty much the coolest thing ever. And I'm okay with not being the best at it in the class. I'm hanging out with people which is also different for me. Marc and I hung out after work the other night and saw a movie. I've been hanging out with the guys from work a lot. Alexis and I frequent the trails at Millpond Park and talk which is great. Millpond Park is pretty much my favorite place in Mt Pleasant. It's just nice to know that I can function without my family around to make sure I'm okay. It's just good to know that I'm okay on my own and that I can be happy. I was worried about coming back to Mt. Pleasant and work and things after being sick and gone for so long. I had seriously considered cancelling my lease and just staying in port huron instead of moving in to Timbercreek but I'm definitely glad I didn't.

I just wish my stupid right side would stop being swollen and that it wouldn't hurt when I even remotely come close to touching my stupid scar. I'm not Harry Potter, my scar shouldn't hurt! However, it does...especially when I bumped it with a case of jam tonight...I thought I was going to puke...

I feel that it should be against the law to show a sonic commercial in an area in which there is no sonic...for like a million miles. Next spring break, I'm going on vacation...not to the bahamas....or florida...but to the nearest sonic...I've decided...

I have quite possibly found an apartment for next year...and it's exactly what I want...and I only say quite possibly because it would be just my luck to say that I have it and then go in to sign the lease tomorrow and have them say oops we let someone else sign the lease or oops he decided to re-sign his lease...I'd lose my mind...

I had the day off yesterday...I cleaned my bathroom...talked to my mom...went shopping...and watched Boys and Girls again...I love that movie...it's great

I've been pretty happy for the last few days...it's nice for a change...

I haven't really had to deal with Morgan and Rachel much which is also nice...

I don't really feel like typing anymore